May 24, 2009

Miracle in Life


Do you believe in miracles ? Why does everyone get so excited about miracles ? 

I do believe in miracles. And yes, I got excited, simply because when I see or found my miracles, I see GOD and HIS works on me ! 

This is my story when I lately found another miracle that God has shown it to me, it is when I found my long-lost friend, my childhood friend ! It was started when I was browsing the google engine, and found a blog wrote about "That's What Girl Friends Are For", written about a year ago, and the writer, whom did not mentioned her real name, but wrote on my name, my full name, as her neighborhood girl-friend. I gave my response by writing a comment, give her my email and hoping that my guess could be right. And guess what ??? It doesn't take long, she dropped an email to me, gave me her number, but before I have a chance to call her, by what we called "a coincidence", we both met just in few days after ! This was less than 3 weeks since I dropped my comment on her blog ! 

Her name is Ari Dianing Ratri, or I used to call her Dian. She is my childhood long-lost friend. I was on my last year of elementary school, just moved to Jakarta, and living in the area of eastern Jakarta, Pondok Gede. We started spending time together after school, almost everyday since our house was so close to one another, from ride bike together 'till, I still remember when we played "masak-masakan" or play "kitchen and cooking" together...:) aah, I still remember those old days when we were kids ! It seemed like yesterday, though ! But the reality we just never meet again for more than 20 years, I lost contact with her when my family moved from Pondok Gede to another neighborhood in southern Jakarta, Bintaro. So it is really a joyful moment when I saw her again on that afternoon, when we hold and hug each other tight.    

I thank God for this moment, for giving me another opportunity to meet again with my long-lost best friend. And I smiled today when I wrote this, remembering how HE set this coincidence meeting with my friend, Dian. I was having lunch with my other friend at Mall Ambassador, one of the closest mall nearby to my office, and suddenly, there was a lady with 'jilbab' passing by our table, and suddenly calling, well, almost shouting on my name ! I looked at her, and so surprised to see her, as I just wrote her a message, and wish to make a plan and visit her ! And there you go, your wish just come true in a second ! 

Do you believe in those what we call "chance" and "coincidence", are also miracles ? Do you believe that find a long lost friend is also a miracle, a miraculous reunion ? Or, it is like one day when you miss your bus, and the course of your life is forever changed. A miracles happened to you ! A miracle so seamless that even the person they happen to doesn't fully comprehend what really occurred ! Well, again I do believe in miracles, but most importantly that I now thank God, for not just giving me those miracles in life, but also for let my eyes and heart open to see and feel those miracles in my life. Everyday when I wake up and find out that I am still alive, my hubby is still alive and those that I love are still alive, is my daily, my everyday miracle. I thank God for making this coming day the best of my life. 

God miracles, either we see it small or big miracles, but let us continued to give thanks and praise God, the creator of all life in this universe.   

"Praise the Lord, o my soul, all my inmost being, praise His holly name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefit, who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's". [Psalm of David 103] 

May 15, 2009

If I Had One Chance...


"If you had the chance, just one chance, to go back and fix what you did wrong in life, would you take it ? And if you did, would you be big enough to stand it?"  [Mitch Albom, For One More Day] 

I felt intrigued by that questions, and start to think which part of my past life that I would like to go back and fix it. I got to be very honest that I have made dozens of mistake, some were very bad and when I remember it today, I feel so ashamed and stupid ! Yes, there are many things in my life that I wish I could take back. Many moments I would recast. 

But IF, only one chance that I could have, then this is the scene of my life that I choose to fix it...

Back when I was 20 years old. A self-center young girl who just graduated from college, she thought that she can do whatever she want, just because now she can earns money by her own. Then she started to create her own world, from a daddy's girl who used to hide behind daddy's back turned into a young selfish girl who built a world where "freedom of choice" is the only key word to justify everything that she wants, and everything that she should not do or take in life. Other than those kind of life-style, my biggest mistake was by having a relationship with a man that broke my parent's heart ! And since that day I have created an unbridged gap between my parents and I. This was my biggest mistake, for I left them, and ignored them for couple of years, till the day come when I realized that I have ruined my youth life ! 

I would like to recast this scene, put far away of my youth-life ego and avoiding the unbridged gap between my parent and I. Spend more time with them to learn from their wisdom and experience, and love them more than just take them for granted. 

This that I really wish I could fix it: let my parents know how precious they are... 

May 12, 2009

You Can't VS You Can...


Below is a nice reminder and advice as I got it from my friend, Erna Sitanggang, and would love to share it with you here ! It's about what we can not get / do / achieve in this life, and what we can get / do / achieve in life. It just simple things, but meaningful.

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You can't decide the length of life, but you can control how you want to live it.
You can't control the weather, but you can control your mood.
You can't change your look, but you can smile.
You can't control others, but you can control yourself.
You can't foresee tomorrow, but you can utilize today wisely.
You can't win everything, but you can try your very best to achieve that.

Hope everyone can face the daily life positively and always be happy !

May 11, 2009

So Long, I Move On...

[my "high-tech buddies", goodbye my white SE !]

After more than 4 years partnering with my white Sony Ericsson M600, today I have been forced to say goodbye to my favorite cellphone ! It was truly my mistake, for went-out to a super mall called "Metropolitan Mall" in Bekasi and wore my open tote bag. Well, actually its my first time visited the mall after such of years, and I got stolen ! grgghhhh !!! This phone was a gift from my hubby and specially delivered by him when I was living in Papua, and ever-since become not only as a communication and internet tool, but has be a good buddy and best friend to me :) well, if you are living alone with thousand miles away in a remote area, far away from your hubby and family, good friends, and good entertainment life as in Jakarta, then having a good communication tool is an essential to cheer your days ! 

Now I still weigh the most appropriate replacement ! Hopefully within this week, I already can figure out on the new replacement of my Sony Ericsson ! 

Similarly with my situation, well okey okey, I just trying to make it similar with my own [hehehe], after more than 4 years [too] now SBY has to say goodbye to JK as his partner, and after a long search, then within this week SBY will announce his new running-mate for this coming 2009 Presidential Election ! I wonder who will be, but hopefully the person will be someone whom SBY can rely on and depend on, just like how I used to depend on with my Sony Erisson ! hehehe 

I might be feeling sad today for loosing my favorite cellphone and all of my data in there [and worst, I might not be able to find with similar brand as the company is getting broke], and so is SBY for broke-up with JK [is he sad ???], but as it said, "even though I have been tossed and turned in life's storms, I will surely see a brighter dawn", and I hope it for my self and also this nation, as we all need to keep moving on...

[when I feel bit anxious whether SBY will partnering with PKS/PPP, ...hope not !]